Based On Life

“STOP IT! You think you know me so much...you don’t know me at all! The only reason I held back was because of your stupid captivity and always expecting that i’d be that perfect girl that would always put up with your stupid crap!” I was breathing heavy now as my feelings led to tears.
I could run right now. I know where I could run, a place where I would always be welcome.

“Drew!” I screamed as my voice became hoarse,“Drew please! Drew, I need you now!” my legs buckled under me and I feel into the moist grass.

A minute later, I heard the door open and there he was, standing over me. He almost was about to offer a hand but noticed it would be useless and so he held me in one arm and brought me into his house.

“Lee,”he replied calmly, “Lee, what’s going on? Are you hurt?”
I looked around and saw that I was in his room. I had never been in here before and i was surprised that he would bring me into his room.

“I-I” I was being so idiotic and I didn’t know why I went to him. When times were tough that’s what we were there for, to take care of eachother, we’re best friends. I felt so overwhelmed by what had happened with my parents before and now as I lay on his bed in his room. I couldn’t breathe properly at this moment and now i was infested with tears struggling to give him an answer.
He pulled me into his warm embrace, he was so strong, I felt so safe. “Lee, please tell me what happened? You’re starting to worry me.”
I wiped my face with my sleeve and looked into his weary eyes.

"I had a fight with my parents," He looked at me slightly stern. "I know it probably wasn't so bad that I had to runaway but-but-I didn't know what to do and I-I just needed to get away," my voice broke as the sobs came back into play.

"Ssshh, breathe Lee, breathe!" he spoke to me softly.

"Oh my God, I can't believe I'm doing this to you! I feel like such a...a baby!" That didn't help, it just made me feel worse. I immediately jumped out of his embrace and stood straight infront of him.

"Lena, c'mon. You're being absolutely ridiculous!"he stood up from his bed to stand infront of me. He was at least a foot taller. He rubbed my damp arm with his hand and pulled me in, this time I did not let go.

That night, we spent time together which we hadn't done for what it seems to be forever. He is so smart, he said we should watch a movie and I know he just did it so that I would stay distracted..and NOT cry my eyes out. It was ten o'clock when the phone rang. Drew picked up the phone.

"Hello?" he said with surprise and alarm.

"Hi, it's Teresa, Analena's mom? uh well, we kind of had a fallout this evening and she ranaway...i'm coming to pick her-"

"Uh, I don't think that's a great idea...I'm sorry, I tried to convince her to go back home but she..she's in a really torn state right now...I'm not even sure that she won't runaway from here!"

"Excuse me?! Who do you think you are! I am her MOTHER! I want to speak to my daughter RIGHT NOW!" she blarred through the phone.

Drew gave me the phone.

"Mom."

"Oh my God Lena, you are in so much trouble! How dare you do that to me and you're father! Where did you get that from? Young lady if you don't clean your act up-"

"Mom, I strongly suggest you stop right now! You know why? Because I don't have to go home, there is no point of going back anyways because you NEVER compromise. You and dad make up so much bullshit it's not even considered reasonable parenting anymore!"

"I don't have to be reasonable to suit YOUR standards. I am your mother. And what you're doing right now-running away- doesn't do anything for you."

"I'm on the brink of seriously, running away and you still give me all your shitty authority bullshit?"I paused to try and balance my feelings but i was starting to lose it. "And you wonder why I ran away."

"You know what, you are just making things worse for yourself so go ahead and do what you're doing because 'you always know what's right', tonight, I don't care what the fxxx you do as long as you are back here in the morning for school." The pain was seeping in, I could tell. It was that distinct tone she made that made me aware that what I had said did go through for the while.

to be continued...

OKAY. So...you know how there is always going to be someone who hates you? Someone who disrespects you?? Well,I never did ANYTHING wrong to any of the idiots that CHOOSE to pick on me for my most visible flaw... SO KILL ME FOR HAVING A HABIT SO KILL ME FOR HAVING A SCAR Doesn't mean people have to be pure idiots and pretend that i'm not in the room. They don't have to do that! They don't have to be so insensitive...they KNOW that I KNOW what they are referring to! They are soooo cruel. Still, I can't believe this isn't the worst situation i'm going to have to put up with. Nobody notices but the victim gets hurt. I shouldn't let it get to me but I am already involved because they're talking about me! I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING THEY JUST USE ME FOR A SILLY SICK AMUSEMENT OF THEIRS. They have no life and think it is cool to trash others, good people, because they aren't! It's because they are stupid and think it doesn't affect the victim...because they don't know how it feels or they don't care! Either way..they definitely don't think before they speak! If they really thought about it and searched for a good side, and realize that they are doing something wrong then....life would be easier for EVERYONE. FML!!!

Okay.

I'm back from a LONG rest. I've been reading so much and loving every minute of it!

Here's the list of books I have read for 2008 and 2009:

4 Twilight Series (all four) Stephanie Meyer
1 Betwixt Tara Bray Smith
1 Flipped Wendelin Van Draanen
1 Bloom Elizabeth Scott
1 The Truth About Forever Sarah Dessen
1 Wicked Lovely Melissa Marr
1 Generation Dead Daniel Waters
1 Evermore Alyson Noel

Total: 11 books
YAY! I've succeeded!

ahaha i'm proud of myself

HOLY MAKEREL!
I HAVE WRITTEN SOOOOOOO MUCH FOR MY FANFICTION IT WILL TAKE A WHOLE YEAR TO TYPE IT OUT!

:D

I am going to need a team to type it out some day.
Sorry for not posting.

If a Dream is a Wish..Then, Where Did This One Come From?

Last night...well actually I think it was in the morning, I had a dream about my friend. We were in a cute little boutique-ish kind of town and the dream just cast an image of him through my eyes as we were talking, it was dark and it seemed like we were in a banquet hall or dance studio. Anyways, the fact is that it seemed like we were trying to hide and runaway to meet somewhere, he was no more than two feet infront of me and I think we were talking about how this wouldn't work and i didn't quite get the point until he said we should stay away from each other. That was it. That was when I freaked, my character in the dream was so angry and felt so small and unwanted. I could feel the emotions flow through my body--as if it was really happening. And then, they walked in, my old friend that i recognized to be from my street had a leather jacket and greased hair--like he'd just came out of the Grease movie--i think he had a pipe in his hand ( i was thinking, what the hell is he gonna do with that?!). Then I wasn't sure about the other character that appeared but I think it might have been my brother. My old friend was so agressive and looked like he was going to drop the pipe and even just punch my friend with his bare fist! I was furious and sad, how could he? How could they all?! And then i could see it wash all over my friend's face...he didn't want me, not as a friend, acquintance...nothing. He must have said something, now i realize it was just an act, he wanted to give in so that i could move on. Two police officers appeared out of nowhere and surprisingly grabbed my friend forcefully taking him out of my sight. He did struggle and managed to give me a sorrowful look obviously reassuring me he didn't mean to leave me. I was so confused and upset, usually my dreams mean something...something that's going to happen...what if this happens in some smaller way? He is a good friend to me, it's not everyday you find a friend like him. All I know is I have to prepare myself, just in case things do take a turn. Still, I can't help but feel sad.

Fan Art Quicky by Nat

What d oyou think of my fan art for the Twilight Series? I made it off of Paint, I was really bored so I just made it for fun :P

What's that? A BOOK CLUB!

YES. FINALLY! I have rallied up some girls in my grade that LOVE Twilight and the same books and so....WE'RE GOING TO START A BOOK CLUB!!! YAY! I'm so excited! We are going to try and start it as soon as possible but the problem is one is still reading it and the other one hates Twilight but likes Generation Dead so i might just have to start off promoting the books. With the Twilight Lexicon as our aid we will try and crack the codes of Twilights 'behind the scenes' and little possible clues that Stephanie Meyer may have slipped into the story without us knowing. We will dissect every sentence of the book to better understand and feel the characters. We will also discuss our feelings and opinions on the stroy and the characters. Then, we will move on to Generation Dead!!! STAY TUNED!

Oh, and if you'd like go ahead and share your opinions too, but wait until I start the posts, ight?